The wind picks up and with it the waves of the big lake just a block away. From my cracked window I can hear them begin to crash against the shore. It is another summer storm brewing.
Instinctively I get up for a glass of water, then take a seat next to my neglected daily source– a devotional my husband picked up on a whim two years before. It came to mind that I’d ignored it in my busy-ness. Two-thirds in I find my bookmark. Opening to see where it was I left off three or four months past I find a note scrawled “For Dear One.”
The first paragraph for that day reads:
“When you are tense and unrelated, you are still centered in yourself. You are the center of reference; you are trying to hold your world together. When you relax, you shift the center of reference from yourself to God. You are no longer a self-centered person, but a God-centered person. Relaxation means release from yourself. When you are unrelaxed and tense, you are like a person who holds his breath in order to save his lungs. The lungs are saved only as you allow them to take in and give out. So you too are saved only as you take in prayer and give out service to others.” E. Stanley Jones, Abundant LIving 1942
It was the last message I’d read before losing touch with my center. I had started each morning reading a page and the recommended scriptures– supporting evidence of the devotion. Then I stopped. Becoming self-centered, and everything became harder . . .clearly more difficult.
I must remember to focus outwardly. Thank you Lord for waking me. It is well. It is well . . .and good night, once more amen.